feeling better now
feels the worst in the morining everyday
then it gets better
at night is the best
feels super at peace

when we collected the ashes today,
my mums remains had many many pink patches on them
the monk said that its a very good sign

i hope she is doing well now up there
she has done so much and its time that she takes a good rest.

basic stuff like dinner is becoming a problem

my dad came back from the clinic (cos of the high blood pressure)
but no food sia
he insisted on eating bread but bread got no nutrition la
so in the end we tried to steam egg and cook rice
not very good i would say

my dad is having high blood pressure again
i cant even study without worrying about him

gone are the days where i can study and work without worrying
now the entire burden of the family falls right on to me
its so heavy i cant breathe